It has been exactly two months and nineteen days since I married my best friend. Our wedding day was the happiest day of our lives. Several days ago, I remembered a prayer I said years before I met my husband. I had just started more specifically praying for a God-fearing husband. One day, after asking for the Holy Spirit to grant me wisdom to know how to pray for God’s chosen spouse for me, I found myself on my knees eager to offer up one of my most earnest prayers. It was one that didn’t have any ‘specifics’ that were left up to me, but left all the results totally up to God.
Lord, I pray that you would grant me a husband and marriage that would help me have a deeper understanding of Your love for me. May he be one that not only hears the words of my mouth, but listens to the song in my heart.
That was it. Short and simple. My prayer journals began filling up with other specific prayers for my future husband, yet that prayer never ceased to leave my mind. I knew only God could help me best understand true love.
It’s been a little over two months since I became a wife. Some days, I find myself wondering what I did to deserve my husband. I often find myself in overwhelmingly grateful and happy tears. The tears come when my husband sends me a text message right before leaving work, asking if I need anything from the grocery store. It happens when he comes home with herbs, spices and other ingredients for the dinner he knew I was making but didn’t have all the ingredients for. Tears roll down my cheeks when he gladly sets up our Roland studio keyboard and recording equipment so I can get back to making music - a project I have been wanting to accomplish for years. I cry happy tears when he wakes up at 5am to help me prepare for an upcoming potluck that requires tedious food preparation…which usually means hours of varicose-forming standing at our “very purple kitchen” (as he likes to call it). When he spends hours on FaceTime with my parents and plans the details of our time together during their upcoming/next visit, my heart can’t help but feel like bursting with joy as I realize love is not something we must deserve in order to receive.
Love is a GIFT from God.
A woman who fears the Lord will not run away from God to satisfy her longings and relieve her anxieties. She will wait for the Lord. She will hope in God. She will stay close to the heart of God and trust in His promises. The prospect of departing into the way of sin will be too fearful to pursue; and the benefits of abiding in the shadow of the Almighty too glorious to forsake.
Be like the flower who even gives its fragrance to the hand that crushes it.
Oh, dear! If there’s anything I’m (very) quickly learning about myself during this move, it’s that I have WAY more books than clothes. …and I’m absolutely fine with that! ☺ A walk-in library would be much better than a walk-in closet. Books contain adventures, experiences, vivid verbal imagery (painted with the colorful strokes of words), words of wisdom and knowledge, testimonies, tear-jerking and life-changing stories that make you cry and laugh (sometimes both at the same time), instructions, admonitions (yes, lots of bitter medicine…but they’re good for ya!), life lessons and gripping facts (and some old and forgotten ones) that challenge you into action. The pages of books contain worlds, countries and cities all ready to jump into action and existence the very moment you begin reading their pages! Books carry the fresh smell of local street food in a remote little town tucked in the mountains somewhere in Asia, the sound of children excitedly greeting a perfect stranger who just arrived to serve as a missionary in an African village, that chilling blow of the winter wind in the European mountains…the list goes on and on! Books may get old, worn and torn (just like shoes, purses and clothes), but the wealth of knowledge they give to those who take the time to read them outlast the fleeting satisfaction of having possessed and worn the latest of everything. And better yet? Books change lives and relationships! Guess which book is the BEST READ for everyone? (Hint: Book not in picture! ☺)
So tickled with inexplicable joy from my fingertips down to my toes (which are all curled up near/on the sustain pedal from all the excitement)! Got access to a black and white dance floor for my fingers! I think C7 would make a great first chord for my very own tunn-tunn-tuhtunnnnn! Always dreamed of writing music for my own wedding! Be still, my heart. Get back to andante.
The Blessing of Answered Prayers
God’s answers to prayers never cease to blow me away! Four weeks ago today, after much prayer, I made the decision to move to San Diego. Since then I asked God to give me an apartment and a roommate. My biggest plea was for Him to provide me with a roommate I could be a blessing to…and vice versa. Someone I could pray and spiritually grow with. I began searching all over the internet. Craigslist, Trulia, Apartment.com, Rent.com…you name it. But a still small voice whispered and told me to stop with the ‘.coms’ already and to simply just trust God with my move from the east coast to the west coast. I finally stopped searching online and prayed for God to do the searching for me. He used my wonderful and supportive fiancé, Bible study friends and new church family to be my hands and feet.
One week ago today, Kerwin and I knocked on the door of what is now my new home. My new roommate and I hugged and introduced ourselves. She gave me a tour of the place, and before Kerwin left to go home, the three of us gathered in the living room and I said a short prayer to ask for God’s guidance and wisdom for us all, thanking Him for His provisions and perfect timing.
Fast forward to last night. Cheryl and I had a blast talking for hours about our life experiences and God’s remarkable answers to our prayers. We found ourselves laughing (so hard our cheeks and abs hurt) and tearfully crying all at the same time. At one point we started asking each other why we were crying! LOL! We were so overjoyed God brought us together as an answer to both our prayers. It was an exhilarating and affirming experience! It was fresh air to both our souls! And to top it all off, Kerwin came over and the three of us prepared and had dinner together. The evening ended with Kerwin’s delicious banana ice cream and a relaxing walk near the canyon (but not in the canyon due to rattle snakes…yikes!) around the neighborhood under a clear and starlit San Diego sky with the full moon beaming down at us.
This year has been full of wonderful Eureka moments. Yesterday was overflowing with many! Our Heavenly Father is not only one amazing life Author. He is also a Matchmaker, love story Director/Producer, Real Estate Agent, Life Manager, coast-to-coast Moving Conductor, Divine Premarital Counselor, Wedding Coordinator, Financial Adviser, Prayer Hearer and Wiper of happy tears.
Once again, GOD has provided countless and new ways of making my favorite Bible verse more true and real for me. Heaven is truly His Costco and when He blesses, He blesses in bulk!
"Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart." - Psalm 37:4
Oh, how much I’ve missed you! I’ve got news! Wonderful news! Since the last time I shared (and I mean really shared) about my life, I’ve fallen in love with a wonderful man of God. His name is Kerwin. I could very easily say he’s the man of my dreams. But I would rather say he’s the man of my prayers. He’s my best friend! He has a heart that is on fire for God and His work. He makes me laugh so effortlessly. Calls me his “silly beans”. Perhaps it has to do with him bringing the goof out of me. He gives of himself and his time to those in need. Loves music just as much as I do…and plays the piano, too! Most of all, he is a prayer warrior and a wonderful spiritual leader.
On June 28, at the top of Stone Mountain (where we went on one of our very first dates), he asked me to be his wife…to marry him and be his helpmeet for the rest of our God-given lives.
For years I claimed the promise in Psalm 37:4. It is my favorite verse.It says, "Delight also yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart." As I look back today, I praise God for His abundant blessings. In giving me my fiancé, He has given me one of the deepest desires of my heart. The desire to serve Him with a helpmeet that loves Him first…and me second.
…because truly, a heart that loves God above anything else is a heart worth loving - with a love worth trusting. :)